EP53 – The Moment I Realized I Didn’t Recognize Myself Anymore
I Thought I Knew Who I Was
Acting Head of Marketing.
Global brand.
High-performing team.
Baby on the way.
It looked like everything I had worked for was finally happening.
But behind the confident title and the professional accomplishments…
I was quietly unraveling.
The leadership changes, the toxic dynamics, the constant push to prove myself—it all added up.
And one day, staring at my swollen belly after yet another leadership call that ended in tears, I thought:
“Who even am I anymore?”
The Call That Sent Me Into Labor
On my last week before maternity leave, I dialed into a leadership meeting from home.
What followed was 20 minutes of being screamed at—relentlessly—by someone in a position of power.
It was humiliating.
Aggressive.
And completely unnecessary.
My hands were trembling. My heart was pounding. I couldn’t speak.
It got so intense, the CEO had to step in and remove the person from the call.
Two days later, I went into early labor.
My body couldn’t hold the stress any longer.
And I never went back.
What No One Tells You About Burnout
I resigned while still on maternity leave.
Not because I didn’t love what I did.
Not because I couldn’t handle pressure.
But because my nervous system was screaming for relief.
The truth is:
You can be great at your job and still be destroyed by a toxic culture.
You can love the work but dread the people.
You can be “fine” on paper and still be sick in your soul.
It’s not just burnout—it’s trauma.
And too many women are walking around thinking they’re the problem,
when the system was broken long before they started questioning themselves.
Healing Didn’t Come Overnight
After I left, I thought the anxiety would disappear.
But my body didn’t forget.
The panic. The tight chest. The feeling of waiting for the next attack.
It stayed with me—until I started doing the deeper work.
What helped me finally feel safe again wasn’t just talk therapy or productivity hacks.
It was reconnecting to my body.
Learning to regulate my nervous system.
Reprogramming the subconscious beliefs that told me I had to “push through” to be worthy.
This is the work I do now.
Not because it’s trendy.
Because it saved me.
You Don’t Have to Live in Survival Mode
If you’re reading this and your body knows exactly what I’m talking about—
I want you to know:
You’re not broken.
You’re not too sensitive.
You don’t need to “toughen up.”
You just need safety.
Support.
And space to breathe again.
That’s why I created a free calming hypnosis audio—to help women like us stop spiraling, and start healing.
If your job has left you feeling anxious, burnt out, or numb…
This is your sign to choose calm.
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